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Cleaned up and beta'd on AO3.

WARNINGS: dark, non-con, sibling incest, underage, violence, non-procreative bodily fluids

For kink meme Omegaverse prompt:
One of the Holmes boys is an alpha, and the other is an omega. Normally, siblings aren't compelled to knot each other during oestrus; in fact, the hormone cocktail is supposed to put off close family. But Mycroft and Sherlock already put each other off, and it's not like they're anything approaching normal on a good day...

2/27 EDIT: Aaaaaand, currently in belated beta. Woot!
3/13 EDIT: No, seriously. Waiting to finish followup and post both together. This is SO SO SO NOT BRITPICKED.
4/4 EDIT: Goddamnit, people, stop looking at this until I get it fixed. Alright ... headed over to post for Britpicking. Fear!
6/6 EDIT: I'm probably not the slowest ficcer out there, but, 
OK, it's been picked over. I'll pimp the final draft when it's up - it's not a lot different. Think "cereal bars" and some dialogue changes. Hey, who knew "goddamn" fell out of favor in England in the 19th century? Well, you did. And you.
9/13 EDIT: Holy Christ, it's up.



On Mycroft's bed they are again curled back-to-front.

At some point in the process of slinking into his bedroom and laying an extra cover over his brother, Mycroft has cleaned himself and slipped downstairs to offer a passable excuse to the parents. When he returns, he takes the telephone handset into the adjoining room. Sherlock lies sullen in the dark, listening to the indistinct monologue, until his brother returns, snaps on a lamp and approaches the foot of the bed.

"Mummy and Daddy will know," mumbles Sherlock.

"Daddy will know," says Mycroft. "Mummy is on suppressants, and can't really tell what's going on anymore."

"Suppressants," breathes Sherlock. He feels as if a window has been opened in a stuffy room.

Mycroft is silent for a long moment.

"Sherlock, Mummy used to be a very bright woman."

To his own enormous surprise, Sherlock begins to cry. And then he doesn't stop, but pulls a pillow to his face and cries and cries, harder and harder, until Mycroft slides in behind him, lays an arm over him, and holds him tensely against his body.

When he has recovered, Sherlock corrects himself. "Daddy will know."

"Daddy will know," agrees his brother, his voice a bit thick, "but he won't say anything. I would just . . . suggest that you stay clear of him for a few days."

Sherlock turns this over in his mind. There are nasty things clinging to the underside of it, and he drops it quickly.

"Just a few days, Sherlock."

Sherlock nods. He presses back against the bulge along his brother's thigh and nods again. He turns his head, shifts his shoulders, and runs the very tip of his tongue across his brother's lips. Mycroft chokes off a cry and pushes himself away, rises, and strides out of the room.

He returns with an armful of Sherlock's clothing and a large toiletry kit. He retrieves a duffel bag from the bottom of the wardrobe, stuffs it, slings it over his shoulder, tosses a pair Sherlock’s black jeans to him, and gestures toward the door with his head.

They drive for a long time. The countryside is dark and unfamiliar, and Sherlock is not watching the roadside signs. Mycroft looks ill. Sherlock is happy that the roadway is mostly wide and straight. He offers to drive, but his brother doesn't respond, and they continue on in silence. At one point, Mycroft abruptly pulls the car to the shoulder and disappears into a hedgerow for almost fifteen minutes. He looks more relaxed when he pulls back onto the road, but Sherlock is grateful when finally they enter a dark drive and pull up to the front of a smallish white cottage.

The mudroom and kitchen are tidy but slightly neglected. Mycroft bolts the door, sheds his overcoat, and fussily unties his shoes. Sherlock kicks off his own shoes and wanders into the low-beamed dining room. There is a heavy trencher table here, its long benches set aside against the whitewashed wall.

Mycroft bustles and clatters in the kitchen without speaking, disappearing several times up a rustic-looking curved staircase. It feels like a fairy tale, Sherlock thinks. Not a very nice one.

After some time, Mycroft pads barefoot into the dining room, where Sherlock sits with his feet dangling from the table and his hands in his lap, as if awaiting instruction.

"Would you like to see?" asks Mycroft. Slightly puzzled, Sherlock nods.

Mycroft unbuttons his shirt, starting with the cuffs, and sets it aside on a bench. He hesitates slightly before removing the rest of his clothes, turning away. Sherlock stifles an infantile urge to giggle when he sees his brother's bottom.

Mycroft turns solemnly to face him. Sherlock looks at a point on the wall just past his ear.

"You got big," he says.

"I'm lazy," Mycroft answers. He sounds forlorn.

"That's alright," says Sherlock quietly.

"And I've grown up."


"It's not always this impressive," admits Mycroft. "It's just the situation."

"Abominable," whispers Sherlock. He inches forward and slides his jeans off. They hang around his ankles. One black sock slips from his foot.

Mycroft presses his lips together. His breathing is tight and controlled, but his penis surges upward and Sherlock watches his testicles bob in confusion.

"Sherlock, I will probably say some things I don't mean. I don't want to scare you, but I might. Very soon I won’t be able to stop. I'm not going to . . . it won't be like earlier, I won’t hurt you, but I won't be able to stop."

Mycroft is staring into nothing, his forehead squinched, and he has unconsciously twisted his fingers together until they've turned white. A light mist of perspiration is sparkling under the fuzz of hair on his chest.

A surge of fury passes through Sherlock—he thinks he might like to say something noxious.

"Touch yourself," he blurts out.

Mycroft complies. Sherlock feels a rush of petty power and briefly relishes the thought of abusing it, but now Mycroft is smoothing the palm of his hand over one nipple and slipping the loose end of his foreskin over and over the shiny reddened glans bulging obscenely out, its slit gaping open with a slow rhythmic "plip."

Sherlock finds his own hand at his groin, massaging his flushed genitals. He squirms against the slippery striations of the tabletop.

There is an unfocused look on Mycroft's face. His voice is strained. "I need to . . . may I, please? I need." He gestures toward Sherlock's hands. Sherlock lifts them away in irked invitation. Mycroft steps between his legs and lets out a sigh as he bends his face to his brother’s lap.

He licks and sucks like a hungry infant. It feels unbelievable. Sherlock's head falls back, and he exhales with tiny nasal grunts. Mycroft's right hand works fast and hard just out of view. He gently pushes with his left hand at Sherlock's chest until Sherlock gets the idea and lies back. Mycroft lifts Sherlock’s heels to the edge of the table and wraps his arms around his hips, hands on his ribs, mouth sloppy between his twitching thighs.

The gluttonous sounds are intensely embarrassing. Sherlock is potently aroused. His abdomen is shaking, independent of his breath and pulse. He has no idea what to ask for. He imagines that his brother is going to fuck him again, and his hole spasms against Mycroft's tongue.

Mycroft responds by engulfing Sherlock's penis in his mouth, with an extravagant groan. His tongue is hot on Sherlock’s balls. He pulls his head away, breathing deeply, eyes closed.

"Do you want me to fuck you, baby brother?" His voice is shaking.

Sherlock does. He does. He does.

Mycroft’s grip is painfully hard on Sherlock's sides. He rubs his face on Sherlock's belly. "My god, how you smell. I can’t believe you can walk around town without someone taking you down and covering you in a public thoroughfare.”

He looms over Sherlock, jacking himself, breathing loudly. He looks so very much like his mother.

Sherlock’s insides go cold. This is suddenly not, this is not an adventure, this is. He’s falling, his stomach lurches. He is horrified to find he is holding his knees, presenting himself with all the dignity of a holiday bird.

"Stop! Not yet."

Mycroft falls forward as if he has slipped on ice, the heel of his hand just missing Sherlock’s shoulder. Sherlock kicks him away with both feet. Mycroft staggers sideways but recovers with grace. “No, wait. Don’t . . .” Sherlock writhes off the tabletop and Mycroft seizes his biceps. He looks terrified. “Sherlock, don’t.” Sherlock yanks an arm away and Mycroft catches him, sideways, like a struggling pig, clutches him suddenly, with a choked noise, and disgorges one, two, three, four gouts of semen onto Sherlock's t-shirt.

Then he is hauling the shirt over Sherlock’s head like it was on fire, leaving a tuft of his hair sodden with gunk. The cloth is stretched and twisted awkwardly, trapping Sherlock's elbows over his head. He yells as he feels his shoulder over-extended. Mycroft shoves him toward the wall.

Sherlock works the shirt toward his lower back. He's crouched against the rough plaster, arms loosely pinned to his sides, one sock on, dazed.

"Take it like this,” gasps Mycroft, pressing the end of his cock against Sherlock’s mouth. A trickle of come still pulses from it, running along the tight seam of Sherlock’s lips.

Things could go a few bad ways at this point, thinks Sherlock. Some of them are very bad. He opens his mouth.

He balks as bitter spunk coats his soft palate. Mycroft clutches Sherlock’s head and crams his cock further in. Sherlock makes a small despairing sound as his pharynx spasms around the thick pressure, but he is too confused now, and somehow too relaxed, to struggle or choke. Mycroft thrusts into him with vehement force, unrelenting, and Sherlock gasps around the veiny organ each time it withdraws. He’s in freefall, he’s floating, he wants to giggle. His eyes and nose are running, and a string of slobber swings from his chin

Sherlock realizes he’s piddling again. It must be a submission reflex.

Mycroft thrusts faster—Sherlock feels opposition bubbling up through the glazed-eyed docility that has overwhelmed him. He slides down the wall a little, trying to pull away, but Mycroft widens his stance and bends his knees, banging Sherlock’s head against the plaster. He presses his groin into Sherlock’s face, brutally hard, smothering him under the pressure of the rubbery knot.

Sherlock can’t make a noise, or raise his arms from his sides, and his brother doesn’t withdraw, but pushes until hairs tickle the end of Sherlock’s nose. Sherlock hazards a clumsy kick at Mycroft from his low crouch. Mycroft thumps him across the head with the side of a closed fist and grabs his hair. Through the black moment Sherlock can feel the monstrous genitals pulsing, discharging their burden into him.

“Take it, you rank little slut,” huffs Mycroft. He clouts Sherlock again. “Choke on it.” His voice dies off into short moans as his penis continues to spasm weakly.

Sherlock registers the words and folds them away. He still hasn’t taken a breath. The shirt has slipped down behind him, freeing his arms. Where he was pushing against Mycroft’s shins, now his hands rest loosely near his ankles. His eyes are half-closed, and his field of view is limited to the hairline of his brother’s pubic mound.

Abruptly, his throat is open to the air. He gags on the first breath and chokes on the second, falling onto his forearms, coughing and shuddering, gulping in air even as he retches it out. He is making such godawful noises, how could anyone . . . his entire body seizes and he vomits hideously. Apparently, that is insufficient humiliation; crimson-faced and rigid, he heaves over the slate tiles until his arms are shaking, mouth slack and wet with bitter slime. He spits.

Sherlock believes he has had enough of bodily fluids for the time being. He staggers to his feet.

All he sees of Mycroft is his arm swaying out in a halfhearted attempt to, what, stop him? He unsteadily evades the grab and tramps up the stairs with deliberate care, leaning on the handrail. He wants more than anything to wait, to be stopped. Wait to be pulled down. His legs are weak and his prick is hard. Mycroft hit him and cursed him. He steps past the landing and through the doorway, swings the dark door shut, and shoots the bolt.

Sherlock pulls the chain on a green glass lamp on the bedside table. There is a vanity at the far end of the room beside the door to an en suite bath. A generous double bed with a faux-rustic frame of light-colored logs fills the left half of the room. It is fitted with a spartan blanket and thin white linens, with extra coverings folded in an open trunk at the foot. The blue duffel bag with their clothes in it is open on the floor.

Sherlock presses on the bed. It gives, but not a lot, and makes a plasticky crackling sound. Better and better, he thinks giddily. A holiday paradise.

His brother is outside the door now, apparently hunched against the frame. When he speaks, his words come mostly under the gap at the floor.

“Sherlock. I only want to speak with you.”

It’s pathetic and Sherlock doesn’t want to hear any more of it. It curdles his stomach. It hurts. He walks into the bathroom and wiggles the spotty chrome faucet handles until the water comes out hot. "Please don't," he hears through the door, but he locks himself inside and slips past the mildewed plastic curtain into in the steam and spray, first washing out his mouth, then scrubbing his sore, repulsive scalp and sluicing between his butt cheeks. He pokes at the bruised areas on his neck and elbows, and tries swallowing. The pain makes him feel small and dirty.

He dries himself with one of the hodgepodge of towels stored over the toilet and returns to the bedroom.

A considerable supply of fruit and packaged food is arrayed on the vanity, along with several jugs of water, plastic picnic bowls, and a couple of battered mugs with school crests on them. Someone planned ahead. He doesn't think it was Mycroft. He drinks some water and eats half a granola bar. It hurts.

He rummages in the duffel bag, hoists on a fresh pair of black boxer briefs, and stands considering the door for several minutes.

When he unbolts the door, holding it ready to slam shut, his brother is standing away from it, feet slightly splayed, holding his light blue shirt in front of himself.

Sherlock stares coldly. "How was this not like the last time?"

"I didn't anticipate that," says Mycroft. "Please accept my apologies."

Sherlock's vision contracts and he is flinging himself toward Mycroft, shouting hoarsely, in a high pitch. "You didn't anticipate? Your apologies? You're the putative 'alpha male’ in this situation! You're the wise elder brother! Do you know what you are? You’re a big fake!"

It is spectacularly silly; he caps his performance with a roundhouse slap to the lower half of Mycroft's face. Mycroft flinches away and Sherlock punches him hard in the shoulder and again in the ribs.

Mycroft wraps his hand around his shoulder, looking puny. He holds his shirt closer to himself. "I was given to understand that it was usually enjoyable. I thought if we tried—I didn't realize it would be so violent. Perhaps it isn't, usually."

Sherlock isn’t falling or floating, he’s flying very fast, in the dark. “You haven't done this before. You’ve never done this!"

“Not as such,” replies his brother, his eyes closed.

Sherlock turns on his heel. He feels Mycroft's hand light on his arm. He shrugs it off, but Mycroft catches two of his fingers and sinks to the floor, pinching them.

“Please don’t let it hurt you. It doesn’t mean anything. You have no idea what I’d do for you. Please, Sherlock. Please.” Sherlock jerks his hand away, afraid it will be licked.

Mycroft slowly implodes, crumpling into himself and clutching hard across his forehead with one long hand. He’s pressed his shirt hard over his groin as if to smother it. “Please, brother,” he says, very quietly.

Sherlock perches on the edge of the crinkling bed. He watches the bowed form of his sibling abase itself at the edge of the cheap woven throw rug. There is a serious flaw in the production model of his wind-up Mycroft. He will have to issue a recall. He’s wrung out and he has developed a headache. He rubs his face with both hands.

He snaps to attention when he realizes that right now he wants nothing more than to crawl to Mycroft and grovel for his forgiveness. To lie back and pull his big brother atop him, and smooth the pain off his face, and lick at his mouth with the flat of his tongue, and gently place his hand over his throat, and spread his legs, and whine for—

Sherlock stands and digs into in the duffel bag. There is one change of clothes for him. He will put those on and drive himself home and something will happen. Something else, something else entirely.

What he finds in the bottom of the bag is the toiletry kit. Hanging out of the closed zip is something puzzlingly like the end of a giant guinea worm.

He blinks.

He opens the kit.

“Mycroft,” he says.

He turns. “Mycroft, what were you planning to do with this?”

Mycroft remains silent and bowed, but the tension in his back has a different quality.

Sherlock wraps a length of the thin white rope around his hand, incredulous.

“Mycroft, you have problems.”

Sherlock pokes through the kit. He understands the basic function of most of the objects within. Creased tube of wintergreen-flavored toothpaste, two toothbrushes (considerate), can of shaving cream, high-end hair product (of course, pff). A translucent purple length of smooth silicone rubber like a section of turned baluster (use easy to ascertain, but why?). A heavy leather collar, saddle tan, quilted kidskin padding, curves clearly designed to fit . . . a person. From collarbone to earlobe.

He can actually feel every blood cell moving through the capillaries in his face. It had never occurred to him. Talk at school can be truly lewd, but clearly his fellows lack imagination.

Sherlock has been staunchly oblivious to the feral odor permeating the room. Now it saturates his senses. He strokes the collar with one fingertip. Understanding uncoils and slithers through him: violence with need, the desire to hurt, to punish, to master, to own, to fuck the thing whose scent is driving you mad. The longing to be fucked, to be hurt, to be punished and hurt.

He considers his brother. Mycroft kneels, hands in his lap, holding Sherlock’s narrow gaze as long as he can before his eyes flicker away. He looks as if. As if he is expecting to be kicked. As if he would enjoy it.

Sherlock is almost doubled over by a wave of lust and rage. Unnerved, he takes his brother’s wrist and pulls him roughly from his knees.

Mycroft is watchful, still holding the stupid shirt in front of himself. Sherlock fumbles breathlessly at a bowline knot. There is just enough rope, with a long end hanging loose. He snaps the shirt out of his brother’s grasp, slips the knot around his his right wrist — Mycroft’s brows rise in interest — adjusts it, maneuvers him to the bed, and pushes him onto his back atop the scratchy blanket. He has to stretch alongside him to knot the rope around one of the thinner branches adorning the headboard, and Mycroft finally groans and clutches low around his waist, pressing his face to the scent under Sherlock’s arm.

Sherlock elbows him away and slides off the bed. How stupid to bring so little rope. Mycroft’s inevitable long dark socks are rolled into buns in his luggage, and he retrieves a pair. He circles the bed to secure one sock clumsily around the headboard and Mycroft’s unresisting wrist.

Sherlock is being humored; this vexes him.

Mycroft stares at the ceiling, breathing deeply, his weight and warmth creasing the blanket beneath him. A creature, a mammal. His member stands off him, crimson, a trickle of fluid creeping down its length to drip into the soft hair below his navel.

Mammal-Mycroft. Lucky mammal. Sherlock may have whispered that. His hand slinks into his shorts to rub his prick, his swelling folds, and the small warm mounds of his balls. He can feel his heartbeat there. He has to bend a bit to stroke his anus. He smears the lubricating fluid forward and back, slicking up his hand, and presses two fingers into the heat. His brother is watching him with sharp intent.

The pang of pity and shame is insupportable and Sherlock turns away in pique, wiping his hand on his hip.

The purple object in the toiletry kit is flared at the base. Definitely something talked about at school. Something perverts do.

He strips off his underwear and reaches through his legs to test the end of the plug against his perversion. It slips through with almost no resistance. Pervert. His muscles relax to accommodate the increasing girth, and he breathes hard until it slides in and snugs down, liquid warmth leaking out around the base against his flesh. He shimmies a bit; the sensation is disturbing.

Mycroft shifts on the bed. “I will untie myself if you continue doing that.” He sounds a lot less contrite.

Sherlock stares at him hard, wiggling the thing with one hand. He is unsatisfied, and dizzy, and infuriated. Sinister chemicals are undoing his neurons, one by one, snap snap snap. He pulls out the useless toy and takes two long steps to the bedside. “Put your knees up,” he hisses. Mycroft reluctantly bends his legs until the soles of his feet are against the blanket, and Sherlock spreads his cheeks with one hand and begins to work the slippery plug into his bum.

He feels spiteful, and helpless. His body is operating by some mechanism to which he is not privy. He feels vile, he is vile, his vileness tugs him along. Mycroft’s hole is leaking very slightly, but not enough to help. Sherlock slimes his hand with his own secretions and uses his fingers to stretch the tight little muscles and re-wet the plug. Mycroft’s erection wanes.

Sherlock darts a look toward his face. What he can see of it is white and as strained as if he were facing a firing squad. “I’m going to do this,” he states flatly. Mycroft gives a tight nod and his body becomes very slightly less rigid. Sherlock twists the wide part of the plug in, and Mycroft cries out once with shock, and again, softly, with some bitter emotion.

Sherlock mounts the bed and straddles his belly.

“For the love of all that is holy, let me inside,” groans Mycroft. He looks a bit grey, but Sherlock feels the resurgence of the erection, wet and fat against his tailbone. He snatches the leftover sock from the bedside table and crams it into Mycroft’s mouth.

“Just shut up. You’re rubbish at sweet talk.” Then he rises and impales himself on his brother’s cock.

Mycroft’s muffled shout is drowned by Sherlock’s groans as he bears down on the enormous intrusion into his body. He forces the swelling knot into himself and pumps aggressively, his slick hole sucking the thickness in and out, hitting bottom with each bounce.

Mycroft heaves to meet him, out of rhythm, and groans deeply as his flesh finally locks into his brother’s. He flings his head to one side, dislodging the sock with his tongue.

“You’re going to hurt yourself.” His dry croak is almost lost in the squeak and crackle of the mattress.

“Fuck you, Mycroft. Fuck you sideways. You’re going to ram me ‘til I bleed. Ram into me until I bleed to death.” Sherlock is on the verge of hysteria, his voice strident and wild. “Hurt me. Rip me open. You’ve locked me tight, I can’t escape. Help! Hurt me!”

Propped on Mycroft’s chest, he clutches his own throat with one hand, chin high, eyes turned down. “I’m all yours, big brother,” he breathes. “Come in me.”

“Jesus god,” squeaks Mycroft, and he does.

Sherlock takes it leisurely after the first hot rush inside him, slow on the upswing, plunging down. It feels like he’s pulling against a leash and returning to heel, pulling and returning. Little dog. He is more full with every pulse of the prick inside him. Little bitch, he thinks. How is a bitch worse than a dog? One of its feet are both the same. To get to the other side.

Mycroft sighs noisily and becomes half-real again, head thrown back, hair stuck to his forehead, clutching the bonds above his wrists. His erection begins to relent. Sherlock squeezes tighter. He wants this contamination spreading inside him. He wants it to rise through him into his guts, into his lungs, until he chokes on it. He stretches his arm behind himself and gropes for the plug in Mycroft’s rear—a surprised grunt of objection, then a whoosh of breath. He slips free of his brother’s cock, lying prone across his chest, clenching tight, and emphatically plugs his own bunghole.

He rises and rocks slightly on his hands and knees, eyes closed. Sweat cools on his back, and the smooth sides of Mycroft’s ribs tickle his thighs on each loud inhalation.

“Would you be so kind as to untie me?”

Sherlock regards Mycroft blankly. He rocks himself. Ah. Untie. Yes.

“Do you think I should?” He ought to be wary, but he can’t recall why.

“My shoulders ache and my hands are numb. And I shouldn’t be inclined to assault you for, oh, a quarter of an hour yet.”

It seems reasonable. Everything seems reasonable. Sherlock dismounts and unties Mycroft, who turns away to sit at the edge of the bed, rubbing his wrists and arms and rearranging the sticky bits of himself. His back is very pink. There is a tiny dark brown mole under his left shoulder blade.

“Are we finished?” asks Mycroft, barely turning his head.

From his kneeling position, Sherlock looks at him as if he’d asked for a cup full of beetles. “What? How can we be finished?”

“I will put on my trousers, drive away, and have someone drop by to pick you up in a day or two.”

Sherlock can’t see Mycroft’s face. He sounds matter-of-fact, almost chipper.

“There are historical works and other such fiction in the den, should you deign to read them. I’m sure the place will survive a bit of replumbing, should you become bored. There are more toys, should you need to relieve yourself. I’m afraid there is little else in the way of ready entertainment.

“Alternately, you may take the car, although there might be some question regarding your license to use it.”

“Mycroft.” Sherlock is a miserable little bug, casually mashed. The plug inside him makes him feel very lonely. He almost manages a demanding tone. “I’m not finished. You’re not, either.”

“Well. Clearly, I can’t promise not to hurt you if you fight me. The little trick you pulled with the insertable did take me down a notch, but I’m afraid that isn’t going to happen again.” His false sprightliness fades. He still hasn’t looked at Sherlock. “I don’t trust you not to hurt yourself.”

It isn’t clear to Sherlock what he should be feeling, or showing that he feels. His arse is full of rubber and jizz, his head is full of bees, his nose and mouth are full of the scent from the back of his brother’s long, freckled neck.

“Okay,” is all he can think to say. “I won’t fight.”

“Won’t you.”

Maybe he will fight. Maybe he will. He doesn’t know. He will never be anything or anyone now. He hates Mycroft and the way he says everything and the way he touches everything and the way he dresses and Mycroft is naked, he’s naked and afraid, and he smells stunning, overwhelming, and Sherlock’s face is inches, centimeters from the hair behind the ear that is just turned toward him.

Mycroft rises, touches Sherlock’s shoulder briefly, walks to the bathroom and returns with an armful of folded towels. He has one wrapped around his waist. His lips are pinched together. He sets the towels at the corner of the mattress by the headboard, and unfolds one under Sherlock, guiding him to a reclining position on his elbows, knees raised. Then he strokes down between Sherlock’s buns with the flat of his fingers, grasps the base of the plug, and wiggles it out. Sherlock releases a little moan and a flood of hot liquid. He is gaping open, wet and filthy and sad. He wants to be filled again. He wants to disappear.

“I won’t fight,” he whimpers. “You’ll hit me.”

Mycroft’s head jerks back with a sharp inhalation. Briskly, almost robotically, he folds up the soaked end of the towel and uses the dry end to wipe his brother down. He discards it on the floor at the foot of the bed and makes a trip to the vanity.

“This is wrong, Sherlock. This is the wrong thing for me to do. I am precisely the wrong person to be doing this.”

“I won’t fight you.” It is unthinkable that anyone else should be doing this.

“Do you even care how I feel about it?”


Seated again beside his brother, Mycroft peels and shares out an orange, then hands him a cup of water.

Sherlock eyes him over the rim of the mug. “This isn’t really enough. We didn’t even eat dinner.”

“I’ll make sausages and eggs later.”

Mycroft dampens a towel and wipes his fingers, then retrieves the toiletry kit and withdraws the collar. He undoes the two buckles at the back of it and opens it toward Sherlock, his head at a dubious angle.

“Do anything you want,” replies Sherlock. He lifts his chin.

Sherlock stands and walks slowly through the room, touching. Bedpost, blinds, windowsill, wall. Dust, wall, wall, water jug. Half of a granola bar. The collar holds him wide open, armored, upright. A king walking to his execution. A fucking princess in a tower. His knees are weak. Everything aches. It’s glorious.

Mycroft is seated again at the edge of the bed. He has turned down the covers. He watches Sherlock from under his brows, masturbating absently, his face fixed in an attitude of preoccupied concern. Sherlock predicts that his expression will settle that way for good. He comes to stand before his brother, lips parted, head high.

“Hurt me.”

“I wish you had any idea,” says Mycroft, as he lays him down on the sheets.

“Do we have to keep the plastic on?”

“It’s only polite.” Mycroft arranges a pillow under Sherlock’s head, and kneels between his legs.

Sherlock pulls his knees up and spreads himself wide with a small wet noise. “Take me.”

“Don’t be a prat.” Mycroft braces himself on one arm and guides his cock to the soft pucker between his brother’s legs. He savors the penetration, entering slowly, withdrawing, and pushing through again, deeper. Sherlock’s groan of frustration barely precedes Mycroft’s long sigh as he slides his cock in to the hilt. He presses forward, deep and tight, his thighs spread wide around his brother’s hips, his girth stretching his brother to the point of madness. He bows to rest his forehead on Sherlock’s chest. He is shivering.

“You don’t have to be nice, Mycroft. I was just . . . it’s alright now.” Sherlock’s chest heaves. He is doling out patient encouragement while desperately suspended on the cusp of carnal surrender. “Take me hard,” he huffs. “I want it. Jesus. I want you to pound me with your giant fucking prick, already.”

“I wish you had any idea how precious you are to me,” Mycroft whispers into his skin. He takes a shuddering breath, angles his hips, and hammers his cock home.


He makes eggs later, but not sausages.

It is just before noon. Mycroft has pulled a bench up to the dining room table, and Sherlock is seated there, wrapped in a duvet. The smell of eggs. Tomato juice. Spicy tomato juice. He sips. He stares blankly. Mycroft sits beside him with a small plate of scrambled eggs.

“You need this. Just a little bit. Slowly. It’s not wise to go all the way through this without a break. It won’t feel very nice until things get moving, but get something inside yourself. ” He holds a fork up to Sherlock’s lips.

It doesn’t feel very nice. Sherlock spends some time in the bathroom, then returns to gobble the rest of the eggs, an apple, another glass of juice, and the remainder of a bottle of green olives. He finds a jar of marmalade. He starts some toast.

Mycroft nurses a mug of tea and watches.

“Do you want some?”


“Here, have mine. I need to find some more tea bags.”

Shortly, they are dozing on a broken-down sofa in a back room, overlooking an overgrown meadow. Sherlock kicks and settles into his duvet, pushing his feet against his brother’s leg. Mycroft is sitting upright in his shorts, leaning against the arm of the sofa with his forehead propped on his fist.

Sherlock doesn’t remember much of last night. Once, Mycroft mounted him from behind, crazed, puffing, after a dash for a piss, laid his head on Sherlock’s back with an exhausted groan and said “this is truly tedious.” Once, Sherlock came to awareness, yelling as if emerging from a nightmare, to find himself atop his brother, snared on his knot, ejaculating across his belly, and Mycroft, startled and scared, clasped him as he twisted away, holding him from behind, propping himself against the awkward headboard—“Ah!” was as much as Sherlock could articulate, the same hopeless phoneme, over and over, until his tongue dried up and he said, in a tiny childish voice, “Help me, Mycroft. Help. Help.” Mycroft rocked him on his lap for a while, made an uncomfortable noise as he adjusted their position, and loosened the collar around Sherlock’s neck. They lay for a while with Sherlock half on top of his brother; Mycroft, arms crossed over Sherlock’s chest, clasping his hands, talked with him about soil microorganisms and a great-uncle they hadn’t seen for a long time, until Sherlock relaxed, breathed deep with a little groan, arched his back, and fucked himself on Mycroft again. That’s what he remembers.

The light is cool and soothing, the room is still and warm. Sherlock half-hears Mycroft murmur to himself, “. . . like some heat-maddened summer fly . . .” before he falls asleep.

They are crowded together, face-to-face under the duvet, when Sherlock blinks back into the world. The windows are full of lavender summer twilight. Mycroft is watching him, hands folded under his chin, elbows pressed tight between their chests. “What did you dream?” asks Sherlock, languid.

“Subterranean lice,” Mycroft answers, without opening his jaw. “Your breath is abysmal.”

“I’ll bet it is.” Sherlock breathes closer to his brother’s face, which twitches in irritation for a microsecond before his eyes flit to Sherlock’s mouth and he angles his head to meet it. Sherlock barely licks the point of his brother’s upper lip, then barely slips inside and barely touches his teeth, and Mycroft barely breathes, mouth open, and Sherlock shivers down his whole body into his groin, where he feels Mycroft’s prick, bent in its confinement, firm up at the crease of his thigh.

His open mouth drifts toward Mycroft’s, and the curves of their lips touch at two tangent points, the breath from their nostrils tickling Sherlock’s septum, until Mycroft releases the tiniest sound and Sherlock melts against his brother with his hand cupped over his jaw, closed mouth pressed to closed mouth, open mouth against closed mouth, finally tongues and breath together for the duration of one soft moan. Then Mycroft ducks his chin and licks his lips.

“That might be a bit much.”

Sherlock is muzzily baffled. “A bit . . . much?”

Instead of responding, Mycroft wriggles the waistband of his shorts down below his balls and rolls against his brother. Sherlock lifts one leg and they scissor together, his back against the cushions of the sofa. He watches his brother’s face as they shift and slide together and finally, inelegantly, couple. Mycroft is hard, and getting harder as he slips himself in and out, but his expression is closed and troubled.

“You wanted it to be Chester.” There is a little prick of ice in Sherlock’s gut.

Mycroft slows. “I liked Chester. He’s gentle, and sweet, and bright, and well-connected. He’s close to his family. He was a good catch, as they say. And I think he’s just as well out of it. I am sorry, though.”

“I am, too.”

“You almost sound sincere,” smirks Mycroft. He shifts Sherlock’s hindquarters directly below himself and begins rutting in earnest.

Sherlock places his hands over his brother’s collarbone, not supporting but holding him. He imagines Mycroft fucking Chester here, collaring him, making him eggs. And sausages. He feels small and dirty. He is falling and falling.

“There’s nothing I can do, Mycroft,” he cries.

Mycroft watches his brother’s eyes as he takes long, steady strokes into his body. "The world is an unhappy place, my love," he confesses gently. He leans onto his elbow beside Sherlock’s shoulder, slips his free hand into the hair at the top of his neck, and pulls until Sherlock’s throat is exposed, his mouth open, his eyes dark and distant.

He lies across his brother’s body, buried inside him, and whispers into his neck. “I will always take care of you.”

Sherlock folds the words away.

 (Link to Part 1)

Date: 2012-02-23 09:45 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
That was absolutely hideous and appalling in every particular. Sherlock's self-deprecating language in part 1 was especially effective. I salute you, sir or madam!

Date: 2012-02-24 12:39 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
In every particular! Wow. Thank you.

It's great to know what works. Thanks for that, too. *salute*

(BTW, I edited this to use the version I meant to post. Just a couple of differences the last few paragraphs. Sorry about that! Still getting used to chopping things for LJ.)

Original prompt poster here.

Date: 2012-02-24 03:12 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Sweet Jesus. I asked for gratuitous bad!wrong brotherfucking, and you delivered an entire world of Bad and Wrong with brothers fucking like sprinkles on a sundae.

Your Sherlock voice is mesmerizing. The sheer vehemence of his hatred is so palpable all throughout—he is repulsive, antagonistic, and utterly sympathetic to me. I curled my lip at his total disregard for everyone else in his world, but it hurt, too; I was never quite sure how much to chalk up to Sherlock's budding jerkass genius, how much was down to youth and maladjustment, and how much could be attributed to fear and hormonal craziness. You made me believe Sherlock truly couldn't help himself at his worst, and my god, that was amazing.

Mycroft, oh, Mycroft. His "hush, hush" and apologies and reassurances that Sherlock wouldn't get pregnant, that whole sequence from the end of part one—fuck, man, everything about that stripped me raw. And the too-rough blowjob, holy shit. And Sherlock remembering only fits and starts, coming back to the surface just in time to orgasm—holy shit.

Major shout-out for your worldbuilding. It's incredibly subtle, but powerful. Little details like those students "targeted for special attention" and the meowing trailing Sherlock at the science hall just grabbed me and held me till the end. I love that kind of shit. I can get lost in it and happily lose the map.

Of course, the sex. The sex, the sex, the sex. This wasn't the full-on kink-button-mashing BESTIAL PORN OF DOOM I was anticipating. It was much deeper, more complex, and yes, hot like hell's furnace—and for me, the horror and hatred you'd built up for Sherlock beforehand made it all the sweeter. I felt like we weren't supposed to enjoy the sex any more than Sherlock did or didn't, as the case may be. It was masterfully played.

"Mycroft, you have problems."

I laughed so fucking hard at that. Oh, Sherlock. Master of the summation, as ever. ♥

I adored your word choice. I adored your pacing. I fucking adored the use of the bondage and plug on Mycroft—y helo weird mix of kinks I hadn't expected to see here!

Thank you so much, talented and generous author, honestly. I can't say enough loving things about this story. ♥

Re: Original prompt poster here.

Date: 2012-02-24 07:02 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
I'm still so high on adrenaline from finishing and oh my fucking god posting MY STORRRRRRRIIIEEEE that I think your love might make me cry a bit. YOUR love! YOOOUUUUURRRRRS! And I left you such a measly, inadequate comment over yonder.

*cry*! OK, hang on ...


Confession: I actually laughed at Sherlock's line, too. He came up with that all by himself.

(Ha ha! I'm glad my unwillingness to pin down WTF was wrong with Sherlock came across as repellent but intriguing ambiguity. He does come prepackaged with a lot of secret drawers and booby-traps.)

This was harrowing to get through, really. I mean, the whole oo, sexy, oh wait, this is actually pretty horrible, oh no what about the sex, oh god, can I really get off on this *brand* of badness? Cos this is really bad. But it gets me off. Nnnrgk. Wait, is worrying about people's realistic reactions to badwrong things in a badwrong universe going to undermine the entire badwrong foundation of badwrong? Dammit. Is this actually sexy? SHOULD it be? (OK, this is a fair question to ask about the O!verse as a whole, but anyway.) It is gratifying as all hell to hear that any of that had an effect beyond giving me a headache.

It would be nice to think the worldbuilding was anything but a riff on very good existing material, but thank you, thank you! Focusing on the details of adolescent feelings and behavior was a handy cop-out! (I mean, seriously, wait, WHAT does he have down there?) The specifics are kind of a tangle in my head right now, which I need to sort out before I get to the next piece.

Please, god, don't let me have blown my whole wad. I know I'm going to start showing my hand when the same thesaurus gets recycled a few times.

Any comments you might have now or later about errors or bits that didn't make sense or didn't ring true will always be welcome.


SO MANY LOVE! Manic, self-absorbed love! Thank you for reading my STORRRRIIIIEEEE!

Re: Original prompt poster here.

Date: 2012-02-24 08:26 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Ha ha! You know, I thought I'd seen your username somewhere, and I could not for the life of me remember. Hello again, belatedly! :)

Regarding the badwrong universe, I think one of my favorite parts about the Omega!verse in general is that it's so malleable. There are a few things that bind all of the incarnations together, but I've seen a ton of different approaches, different levels of bad and wrong (and sweet and funny and romantic and horrifying), and they're all glorious. It's a sandbox where the rules can be interpreted a thousand different ways.

And yeah, I think those of us reading this 'verse are pretty much resigned to finding really wrong shit sexy. ;)

Date: 2012-02-24 03:40 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
holy sweet fucking god

waitasec while I try to regain coherency?

because, like, fuck, this was disgusting and hot and nasty in the most terrible and wonderful of ways, and I know I shouldn't have enjoyed reading it, but fuckitall, I did.

Masterfully played, dear author, because, holy shit

Date: 2012-02-24 07:08 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Thank you for reading my story! I am SO! GLAD! it was disgusting and wrong for you.

Good reason for a sock account, though. Because, Mom? Uh, yeah, no. She did NOT raise me this way.

Date: 2012-02-24 11:39 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Woo buddy.

-dead- This fic has killed me in all the wrong, but oh-so-damn-right ways.

I love it. I love you.

Remarkable piece!

Date: 2012-02-24 06:06 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
In Soviet Omegaverse, it love YOU.

Thank you so much!

Date: 2012-02-25 08:36 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
goodness, if i've ever had any qualms about liking this pairing or verse, you've definitely erased them. this piece is incredible, especially the way you've captured the brothers' voices. oh gosh, sherlock tying up mycroft, and both of them knowing it's wrong, and jfa;lksjdf;jsd (oops, please know that keysmashing is very much a compliment here)

Date: 2012-02-26 03:21 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
I heart you all over. Thank you!

Date: 2012-02-25 08:05 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]

I swear I mean it as a compliment when I say that reading this makes me feel unclean. They're so incredibly fucked up and yet, I can't imagine it happening any other way. Every detail of this is so sinfully, disgustingly delicious, I feel bad for sitting here loving it so much, but the edge of revulsion makes it all that much more appealing.

I particularly love the image of Sherlock taking out the plug and pushing it into Mycroft instead. I MAY HAVE SCREAMED A LITTLE AT THAT PART, JUST SAYING.

If I never read another piece of porn again, I will be content knowing that I had the privilege and the good fortune to stumble upon this fill. I was never much of a fan of the omegaverse, but now, I am officially a convert.


Just... wow, I love this fic. I agree with [ profile] bobrossanon that the worldbuilding is just incredible, as well as the diction. It's borederline clinical in many places and all the more disturbing/compelling for it. Mycroft and Sherlock feel perfectly in character, which is not something I ever would have imagined saying looking at the prompt, and it's just... perfect. SO PERFECT!

ETA: Apologies for the incoherency. I have my doubts about ever being coherent again.
Edited Date: 2012-02-25 08:08 pm (UTC)

Date: 2012-02-26 03:21 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Man, you don't know what you're doing to my head, but I can tell you, I am taking it out to a PARTY tonight.

No, I mean a real party. Where it helps if you're high on your own ego and a couple of beers.


I'm really so, so happy that you share my salacious hideous glee in the perverse. We could, like, sit around at the party one-upping each other and shrieking in horror at ourselves, and after a while everyone would move to another room and WE WOULDN'T CARE.

The Omegaverse is less like a virus than like a bacterial infection. But once you get exposed under the right circumstances, you are SICK!

Date: 2012-02-26 03:26 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
We could, like, sit around at the party one-upping each other and shrieking in horror at ourselves, and after a while everyone would move to another room and WE WOULDN'T CARE.

LOLOLOL, I would totally take you up on that!

Do you have anything else in the works, by chance? :D

Date: 2012-02-26 03:31 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
I ... do have. I'm afraid to talk about it too much yet, but thank you for asking. I probably also need a week off to get some shit done.


Date: 2012-02-25 10:34 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Holy fuck. Like most have said this is dirty and unclean ... and christ its amazing. HOW DID YOU DO IT?

Brilliant fill.

(goes off to regain coherency)

Date: 2012-02-26 03:25 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
I ignored all my schoolwork and just wanked for a week, then stayed up until 4am every morning for the next eight days, in the same dressing gown, eating Girl Scout cookies until I wanted to puke. That was just for Sherlock.

Thanks for noticing. :-D

Date: 2012-03-04 05:13 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
This story is...psychotic. Thoroughly pleased that you took it all the way because I don't even have words. I've never read anything like it. I applaud you.

Date: 2012-03-05 10:35 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
I hope that ... is ... was ... good? For you. Yes.

Thank you so much for letting me know you read it! It's a relief to bring a bottle to share after sucking down so much porny (and other) goodness on other people's tabs.

Date: 2012-03-06 03:39 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Of course I mean it in a good way. XD Hahaha It is a definite stand-out among all the Sherlock fic out there.

Date: 2012-03-07 01:44 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Oh, thank you! I shouldn't have been fishing--I just know it's quite possible not to have much fun and still to have encouraging things to say. Didn't want to assume. :-) When one is young in the hobby, one might well wonder if one is taking an inadvisable direction. I guess the only way to answer that is to keep plugging away.

Date: 2012-03-09 02:57 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Um, wow, this fic is amazing, fantastic and a bit disturbing. But I love the ending, the little reminder that it's all fucked up, but they do care for each other as brothers.

Date: 2012-03-09 07:26 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Aw! You get them. Hooray!

Date: 2012-03-13 05:24 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
WOW. This is the filthiest thing I have ever read, I think. One of the filthiest, certainly. It's like, OK, Omegaverse, you start reading that and you're like WHAT IS THIS?! THIS IS SO WRONG AND HORRIFYING!, and then after you've read it for a while it's almost sort of a sick normal. And then THIS FIC COMES ALONG AND TAKES IT A QUANTUM STEP UP INTO SHOCKINGNESS.

Well done!

Date: 2012-03-13 05:52 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Oh, look, good time for me to sign on!

Honestly, I just finished working through my beta's comments, I'm in a slightly different state of mind than when it was posted, and this was just ... Jesus. Grim as all fuck? Very difficult to re-read, detail by detail. It's a relief to know other people are getting enough out of it to comment, so thank you very much!

Date: 2012-04-15 05:59 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
So I don't mean to start this with a back-handed compliment, but I avoid sibling incest fic in general and Holmescest in particular (which is truly no slight on those who enjoy it; it's Not My Kink). What pulled me through this story (twice in a row because I couldn't quite absorb it the first time) was equal parts horrified fascination, the emotional layering, and the fact that your language is gripping. Compelling. Just damn.

This dynamic, bad!wrong as it is, actually made sense to me. As adolescents we are seething hormone stews of impulse and bad!wrong desires (seriously, IT IS TO LAUGH, I remember desperately holding my aquarium aerator, er, against me as a kind of ersatz vibrator when I was 13). I read this as non-con all the way around; spasms of desperate biological rut between two isolated, dysfunctional siblings. And you weren't just packing in the porn; you were ripping into the uncertain balance of power; Sherlock's fumbling attempt to take sexual revenge on Mycroft; Mycroft's painfully sincere attempts at tenderness, mid-rape; the idea that Mycroft is "taking care" of Sherlock in the most twisted yet intimate way possible. Just... wow. Wow.

Thanks for appropriately warning. In Part 1, my breathing went shallow and my mouth went a little metallic with shock. This fic made breakneck turns down the mountain at full speed, always teetering on the edge of "this is too much for me to read" and dragging me behind with my mouth hanging open. I can't believe you're a "baby writer" at all. This was powerful stuff.

Date: 2012-04-17 07:51 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Backhanded compliments are the best kind. Plus, there are such well-aimed forehanded ones I am squirming all over and have to hide now. Thank you for your thoughtful and kind remarks. It's wonderful to know you read the boys the way I did, and especially the way I intended. Non-con all the way around!

Yeah, I'm still new at this, afraid that my luck will run out, and clinging to infrequent bouts of hypomania for motivation.

(I limited myself to exploration-by-carrot when I was 13. I prefer your solution.)

Date: 2012-04-30 06:33 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Ohhh, holy god, just read this straight through three times, and nnngh. Wow, I’ve been reduced to incoherency. The depths and subtlety of your world-building, the deliciousness and perfect horror of Sherlock’s perspective, the emphasis of smell and heat. This is some of the best characterization through word choice in narration ever. Your use of verbs, my God, is just stunning.

…Mycroft bolts the door, sheds his overcoat, and fussily unties his shoes. Sherlock kicks off his own shoes…

Stuff like that, the contrast between Mycroft’s taking off his shoes and Sherlock’s careless indifference, so elegantly written.

I think the most moving part of this story was when Sherlock realizes his mother is on suppressants.

This is just incredibly well done. Thanks so much for sharing it with us.

Date: 2012-05-01 01:38 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
I'm so grateful for this kind of specificity, you have no idea! Well, maybe you do. Thank you very much.

There is, in point of fact, a final version of this for AO3 coming SOMETIME THIS YEAR, and a related story (at least three, really, but first things first) in the works, for which I have finally uncovered a couple of key scenes. You have reminded me what needs to be attended to, in order to make it readable. Still terrified of failure, but this helps.

Date: 2012-05-01 02:36 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Excellent. I really very much look forward to it. :)

Date: 2012-05-01 12:18 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
I think what I love the most is the narrative, sort of hazy and distant. It works really really well and for me, sort of undercuts how bleak this story is, because i feel like I'm not reading this head on, but at fits and starts and angles. Not only is it an amazing young Sherlock voice, this has to be one of the best Sherlock POV's I've read.

Ok, and I love your use of language, which is so perfect i could hug you.

Date: 2012-05-03 05:57 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Little hearts in my eyes, imagine them.

That hazy description is interesting. Now I wonder if I'm even capable of anything else. I might have to stick with Young Sherlock in Omegaland for the rest of my life.

Thank you!

Date: 2012-05-03 10:16 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
I am, because they are the same hearts in mine.

Oh, come on now, don't limit yourself to only young Sherlock! There are plenty of emotionally stunted dysfunctional geniuses you could write about.

But for real, I really really love your narrative style and you should feel no shame about it.

Also, I would heartily consume any and all Sherlock fic you wish to write.

Date: 2012-05-05 12:55 am (UTC)

Date: 2012-05-02 01:52 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
This was the dirtiest, filthiest, most demented fic I have ever read. Therefor it is now my favorite. GUHHHH!!! It had ALL of my favorite shame kinks. It made my stomach twist in beautiful knots. I love you. I know I know. I'm talking crazy. I don't even know you. But Oh God, I do. Thank you for this wonderful fic.

PS- Your writing is entirely unique and I loved it. It's brutal, blunt and sharp-edged. It kept the story THRILLING.

Date: 2012-05-03 08:25 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Gleeps! Happy to be of service. Going to bed thinking about beautiful knots now.

Date: 2012-05-03 07:37 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]

Date: 2012-09-07 11:10 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
hahaha so here’s the thing, this is the best fic i’ve ever read but i fucking suck at comments so this’ll be short. everything about this is overwhelming and like – grab-you-by-the-balls dauntingly perfect. like i’m almost sick with it in the absolute best possible way – it’s just so ecstatically vile and funny and totally, completely ineffable.

transcendence through dread, or something? christ. idek how to function after reading this. just. how. how did you DO that?

(also your writing reminds me a lot of denton welch? idk what it is – like the obvious fucked up adolescent shit & peculiar english-ness but it’s something more, something prickly and unrelenting? yeah i’m too tired and stressed out to think of it right now). also i added you as a friend, hope you don’t mind.

Date: 2012-09-08 02:24 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]

I am slow as cold molasses and a sucky commenter to boot, so I bet I get more out of a friending than you do. Because LOOK YOU WRITE O!VERSE, W00T! AND ALSO THAT LACTATION FIC, oooh, that one.

Thank you. Wow. What a bunch of nice stuff to say.

Now I get to read Denton Welch because I haven't. And more good omegaverse porn. See how I win?

Date: 2012-09-08 10:23 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
hahaha i always feel weird comparing a person's writing to some author cuz i feel like they go off and read it & then are like 'wut this is unrecognizable and nothing like what i do what the hell was that moron going on about' but i guess it's more to do with how it ~made me feel~ even tho that sounds intensely dumb

jesus christ that lactation fic can i just add a quick note of justification: i wrote that in the middle of night while medicated shh don't tell anyone

Date: 2012-09-09 01:13 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Comparing always makes sense to me that way.

(I won't tell if you share. There's nowhere near enough lactation in the Sherlock fandom.)

Date: 2013-04-23 05:05 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Absolutely fucking amazing, and one hell of a ride. It's profoundly disturbing, and yet utterly perfect. I enjoyed every second. Thank you.

Date: 2013-04-23 07:25 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
:O :D

Thank you! It's a lonely little story and it appreciates your compliment.

Ooo, look, you do Holmescest. Naughty.

Date: 2013-07-31 09:13 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Good writing.
Good use of fluids and sounds.
Nice gut twisting. Those poor guuys, stuck in a hell they didn't even choose.
Poor bastards. I may have to go read canon for a while to get Holmes back into my head.
Does anything follow this?
Real good job with Mycroft.
Uhg. Why doesn't Sherlock go set himself on fire.
It was good for what you were aiming for. A real bullseye.
I would read more, just to see how you work John into this.

Date: 2013-08-01 04:04 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Characters in AUs do start turning into OCs pretty fast. I love some people's takes on Sherlock, John, and the bunch, but I have to turn back to the source(s) repeatedly after I read them so I don't forget.

I hope there will be something to follow very soon. It's been in the works for a long time. It will be a while before we see John, though.

I'm going with "Sherlock does not set himself on fire because he wishes to live."

Thank you for braving the rape-and-misery fest and leaving your thoughts!

Date: 2013-08-01 04:59 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
I think at the very least it would have driven him to drugs. And a lot, just to blot out those times.
He's a proud man after all.


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